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I need a tub of ice cream and some chocolate.
I miss my parents a great deal and I’ve been thinking about them a lot here lately. Yesterday I found myself cleaning the house listening to Little Saigon Radio. Somehow between washing and drying the dishes, I felt a little more adult.
I live alone with my brother and although we have the same house since 1994… this is probably the most freedom I’ve ever had…
I think about mom every morning when I wake up and at 4PM everyday. I’ll think about her randomly at odd times of the day and find myself checking to see what time it is so I can call her. Working on a 12hr time difference is a pain in the ass sometimes. I guess they’re right when they say you don’t know what you have until it’s gone.
I used to be an unbelievably picky eater, but now that she’s gone, I’ve tried just about everything I’ve rejected prior to her departure back to the motherland. God knows I can’t cook worth a crap, but I’ve picked up a couple things since she’s been gone. She still insists that I learn how to cook because no decent man would marry a woman who doesn’t know how to cook. Boo to that I say. Booooooo…
Anyway, hopefully she’ll come back to the States for good. I miss her dearly.
I would post a silly picture of me and my mom here, but I haven’t had the time to scan it. Hooray for being lazy. Maybe later, yes?
Double Deuce
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We went to Dallas for our birthday this year. Boy, was it crazy.
I think I really like Dalls…
Thank you everyone for a fantastic birthday.
Pictures will be uploaded at an unknown time… surely when they’ll be here one day. Surely. Hah.
The Late Night Ponder
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I was driving home from Two Rows today in the cold wet weather and I started to ponder about relationships.
Someone mentioned earlier today that no one really dates just to date. But rather, people date to be in relationships. I find it hard to believe that there isn’t a significant percentage of people who just want to enjoy the company of someone without the desire for it to grow into something other than friendship. Hit it and quit it perhaps?
I realized that for the past year or so I’ve had commitment issues. I went from day dreaming about the “perfect” relationship to letting myself date people that secretly, unbeknown to my conscious self, I knew I didn’t really want to be with. I suppose I did it to sabotage myself out of getting into a serious relationship.
The relationship strike probably came about as a bi-product of being in a relationship where I felt like I was reaming myself into a wall. Consistently running head-first into a wall is bound to cause some kind of damage. Not only physical damage mind you, but it could cause prolonged mental anguish as well. This hypothetical wall in my case was probably made of brick and not dry wall. I put everything I had into it in hopes that somehow it’d turn out right, but I think it actually backfired and made me seem mean and overbearing. Tis cause and effect I suppose. I tired hard only to fail miserably. I got scared and was hesitant about starting any new relationships. I fumbled around and tripped all over myself. I guess now is the time where I get on the horse again, ay?
A full-fledged serious relationship was out of the question at the time, but I must admit that I still toyed with the idea of having a boyfriend for a while. Still, the thought in my head lurks… Should I let my guard down and just let someone sweep me off my feet? On the more realistic side, should I stop dooming the relationship before it even begins? Logically, the answer would be yes… Somehow, I know that my over analytical self will try to spoil it anyway. I’m a surprise ruin-er. I’m the person who always tries to figure out what it is before it happens. The sad part is… I almost always get it right. After I figure it out, I’m excited for all of 2 minutes and then I start to wish I would’ve just waited for the surprise.
Who wants Mr.Perfect anyway? He’s boring. Cookie cutter types are for squares. I want Mr.Perfect for Marie.
Back to Blogging
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So I’ve decided to start blogging again after perusing through my old LiveJournal posts. It’s amazing how much you can grow in a measly three years.
Without pictures, diaries, blogs, etc, how else would you keep up with your memories? I swear if it weren’t for my phone, I wouldn’t remember what to do past tomorrow.
I’d usually try to think of something witty to say since it’s my first blog in forever, but I’m so brain dead it won’t even matter. I suppose this is a good way to remind myself of what a lame-o I was 3 years from now.
Sohel says I should write about my goals. Turns out I already have a long-winded post about that on the TSP forums. I guess I’ll just copy and paste. Hehehehe. Cheating on blogging. How sad.
Here’s the question posed by a young collegiate student:
My question is for everyone on here, did you end up doing what you initially wanted to? I don’t want to be that kid that gets a degree and end up doing something totally irrelevant…. (Sorry not making fun of anyone). Of all you guys/gals on here I know some of you guys own business to working 9-5 at some job. I only ask because I just don’t know what my calling is. I feel lost and thinking that I am the only one going through this.My cousin friend has a marketing degree and he is filling vending machines for a living. It makes me think if college is really worth it sometimes. Well ill just end it for now but all I want to know is are you happy with what you doing? Was this the career path that you wanted and any helpful advice!
Ask Marie:
so here’s my take on this…
i was raised in one of those typical asian families where they basically grind it into your head that SCHOOL IS A MUST. however, as i’ve grown up, i’ve learned that there isn’t one set path in life that everyone should follow. you can definitely make a living without school, but if you do have a degree (as stated above in previous posts), your job opportunities are greater. greater job opportunities lead to greater experience and more money.
having mentioned money… it may sound kind of shallow but we all know it’s true. having money may not make you happy, but it sure as hell makes it easier to live.
i currently attend UH full time student and i work full time at a company that takes care of clinical trials for the big drug companies. i’m starting my fourth year of college and quitting school now isn’t really an option i even consider. i see school as one of my major commitments in life. having a college education never hurt anyone, right? given that there are those scenarios like your cousin’s friend with the marketing degree and fills vending machines (which kind of saddens me because i’m a marketing major) lol. i really don’t see myself heading into the direction of vending machines. who knows? maybe he just settled for something less… maybe he didn’t market himself the right way to land a good job… or perhaps he just ran into some bad luck with his career.
the reason i’m writing so much is because i feel very deeply about the situation. i believe if you have the means to go to college, you should go. there are tons of people who can’t afford to go to college who are busting their balls to even pay for the tuition at junior colleges. college will help to make you a more well-rounded person and will educate you on things that you don’t just pick up on out in the streets. you have the rest of your life to work and learn what the “real world” is like after college. why skimp out on a good education when you have the chance now? i know a lot of people who have dropped out of school and are currently trying to continue their education. it is VERY difficult to go back to school once you leave.
i graduate in a year with my marketing degree, i’ve busted my chops trying to get my career path straight. i started college and got an internship that paid 8 bucks an hour. i worked realllllllly hard to show them that i wanted to learn. interns are a bunch of fuck-ups. i am no exception. the whole point is to get experience. the more dedicated you are, the more educated you are, the more people will realize that you have the passion and the potential to grow. after summer ended, they offered me a job. one summer of experience took me from 8/hr to 15/hr. MONEY IN THE BANKKKKK. lol. 3 months to almost double my pay. granted, i was very lucky to work for a company who was willing to pay me that much as a college freshman.
sadly, that job ended. i never thought that i’d lose that job, but i did. downsizing is a biatch. you learn to just roll with the punches. life changes so quickly, but the one thing that held constant for me was school. i used school as a way to get myself a job actually… i made it a point to let them know that i was hell bent on finishing my commitment to school. i think for the most part, companies like to see that you have goals. so, instead of being a lame ass and sitting around, i busied myself with a plethora of other career choices. i worked in travel, i dabbled in sales. now i have this job. after i have my degree, i’m joining their business development group. as a full time employee, i have really good benefits. they offer to match up to 5% of what i put in my 401K, they have medical, dental, and vision. OH. and they’re paying for part of my school.
dang. that was long. cliff notes? be cool. stay in school. life is fun, learn everything you can. work hard, stay dedicated. show people you know what you want and they’ll help you get there if you get them to buy into your vision. set up some long term and short term goals. this will help give you some direction if you feel lost. write them down so you don’t lose sight. (these goals may not necessarily deal with just your career goals, but your life in general) goals change over time, but who says you can’t amend them? come up with some motivational things to keep you going. this is going to sound really gay, but here’s what mine are:
1. be accountable
2. be responsible
3. be a leader
4. use your girly power
number 4 may not apply to you. lol. women are on the rise. this is a society that protects women and their rights and i’m sure as hell gonna use it to it’s fullest extent. 
remember to use all of your resources!!! friends are a good way to network.
6 month goal: train to run 10 miles
1 year goal: finish school and graduate
life-time goal (which i’m sure are like most people’s): settle down, have a family, be successful in my career, take care of my parents
